Trying to re-motivate myself to begin working on some new projects. After 2 months of running on adrenaline, my energy was completely depleted by the time we finished. I enjoyed a few days of solitude and sleeping in and then didn't enjoy a few more days of the same. So a week after it's all said an done, I have to force myself to start creating something new.
It's not unusual to feel a bit let down or depressed after I finish a project, especially one like this that was so all-consuming. But I think it's really less about this project being done than it is about not having something that's just as daunting lined up to start working on. I like being overbooked. I like having deadlines and having to rise to a challenge. I'm good at juggling. And I might start to long for a day off, for a chance to sleep past 8 am, fo some time to sit and think, I actually use my time more wisely when I do have too much to do.
I've become better at creating my own opportunities; putting myself out there and then making it happen. I did it with this production - and I've done it a lot over the last ten years (have to be greatful to LA for forcing me to be more self-reliant) but it is nice when fate just throws itself at you. I love to be the re-actor; respondong in the moment to the possibilities in front of me. But it looks like I'm going to have to create my own fate, at least for the moment.
I have noticed that even though it's difficult to force myself to start, that I really don't have to do much to get the universe to cooperate. Fate seems to have something in mind for me, and I know if I just start opening some doors, opportunities will arise. They always do. The hardest part is taking the first steps, after that, if I'm on the right path it tends to become easy. (When it stays difficult it usually means I'm trying to force my fate to go in the wrong direction.)
So, I begin. I'm meeting with a manager today and am hoping that will be fruitful. Need to decide what to do next with Hell is Where... and want to find a path for Blizzard as well. (Blizzard: A Love Story in Three Scenes - a one act I finished recently.) Looking too, for some inspiration for my next piece. Have been thinking about writing about Nellie Bly (fascinating woman) for quite some time and need to begin doing the research I need to do to make that happen. Also have a story based on a dream (nightmare?) I had a few years ago, that I've always felt would be a better screenplay than play that I'd like to begin. (I need to get over the idea that I don't know how to write a screenplay - I don't, but I bet I could figure it out.)
Plus I need to focus a bit more time on hypno/coaching clients. Now that I have more time again, it's a good time to grow my practice as I
Musings on creating...and whatever else it is that I do. hypnosis, life coaching, writing, acting, directing, taking leaps of faith, etc.